"The best things in life aren't material "things". They are moments, feelings, lessons, faith, emotions, discoveries, and truths"
This quote highlights one of the things I will be achieving from this journey, as I identified when wrote The Meaning. This post is also in regards to the passing of Pia. As mentioned, have received her remains, and one of the steps which I need to do, for myself, and to honor Pia, is to write this post, much of which is outside my comfort zone by quite a bit.
One of the things which I need to experience, and have experienced some of now, is loss. While loss is in everyone's life, some people insulate themselves more so than others. And some people experience it at different times in life, under different circumstances.
|Front paw print|
|Paw print and pin|
|Closeup of pin|
|Pin and card|
|Nicely wrapped up|
|Cedar box containing remains|
Once had regained my composure, straightened things up and found my card, went inside to settle everything up. On the way was trying to dry my eyes and control myself. Once things were squared away everything was a little better.
|Certificate, it's official.|
|Small lock and tag with her name|
|Cedar box with lock and tag|
|Open box with remains|
Lessons were being learned and foundations were being formed, as was truly in a surreal place. Stayed like this for many minutes, soaking it all in.
When felt it was time, unsteadily got up and wandered to the shower. It was strangely surreal. While in the shower Pia would wander up and wait for me to come out. As towel off, put towel on floor to step onto, then dry off the feet, typically she would always get in my way. It was not the case this time.
|Empty cedar box, remains removed|
|Note inside the front cover|
|Pia, in all her glory|
One of the hardest parts about this was went to bed for the night. She was my sleeping buddy. Would always, even when she got in trouble, attempt to crawl under the covers as if nothing happened. No matter how upset I got it was almost like there was forgiveness, or forgetfulness. This is one of the lessons which have learned. Love always as we don't miss them till they're gone.
It was equally hard to wake up as she would always be resting on me in some form or another, either on my chest, between my legs, or laying next to me. Always in some form of contact.
|Back in place, with imitation rose, and real feelings|
So, it is with a lightened heart, and uplifted spirits, that I celebrate Pia's life. For it is her who has helped me realize quite a few things. Everything happens for a reason, for both me and her!
|Safely in place|
|With crystal to keep her vibrations|
For those that have expressed I don't share enough, and for those who wish to analyze everything under the sun, and then some, it is for you why I went into such depth and detail. May the wheels turn, conclusions form, for things which I don't yet know.
For it is a real man who, among other things, can share emotions in a respectful manner. This is my goal for what have done here.